All around us are influences of Mother Energy, that nurturing connection.
I was born to one Mother yet raised by another Mother (adopted).
I had many Mother figures in my life: Teachers (Miss Nathan, Mrs. Welch, Janie), friends Moms (Barb J., Dianne, Sheila), Church Moms (Janice, Barb L.) and Co-worker Moms (Judi).
When married in my early 20’s, I wanted to have as “many kids” as possible (Mormon influence? HA). That relationship did not last.
I was Step-Mother to a child for a short time during my 2nd marriage. I didn’t want to have kids with that husband after I learned who he really was.
Then I divorced again and starting my 30’s. I didn’t think about being a Mother because I was focused on learning who I was, who I wanted to be and ultimately was being ME. I was a Mother to MySelf!
I was a Mother to my dog Zeke.
I’ve felt like the second Mother to some of my Friend’s kids (Kristy, April) and sometimes my Sister’s kids.
Then in 2004 (at 34) I met a Man who didn’t want more kids and he questioned if I did. I didn’t know! I hadn’t thought about it. He felt it best not to date because I didn’t know what I wanted (that’s fair).
Time went on and I hit 37. Having kids still wasn’t on my mind. I was dating someone 8 years younger and we had a No Babies joke/rule. I liked my life and the new adventures I was having.
In my early 40’s I was approached to be a surrogate – twice. While I had always wanted to go through the physical aspects of being pregnant, I still wasn’t feeling drawn to it.
Now I am Mother to Puppy.
I never felt like something was missing. I know I have had children in Past Lives and I will again in Future Lives. This life is for Me.
Here’s to ALL the different ways we are Mother’s and allow Mothering in our life. ROAR!
Thank you for sharing your story here, Jyll. You’re SO not alone on this topic! I never had children in this lifetime. I know I’ve had them in previous lifetimes…This life, it’s all about learning, expanding and growing spiritually. Much love to you.❤️❤️❤️